Fake It ’til You Make It

By Kelly Joyce

Kelly Joyce

What Credentials?

I am a student, not an expert. I don’t pretend to be. Or maybe I do. I sometimes need to sound like an authority on a topic, an author, or a new concept. I put together the little bit of knowledge that I have gleaned from my readings and research and try my best to sound…well…smart. Being a student is sometimes an exercise in creating polished and fancy-sounding BS.

Good Intentions

Now don’t get me wrong; I will cite my expert sources, and I will do the research and dig up the facts. It’s just that my rendition of all of that digging seems so often like I am pretending to know something I don’t fully grasp. To truly learn something takes YEARS of study, because the knowledge in any given field is SO vast and there are many differing opinions even within the ranks of experts.

What’s a Student to Do?

So I don’t limit myself to what is on the syllabus. I dig on my own. I listen to podcasts and interviews, and I read articles, which lead to other articles, which lead to new discoveries, which keep me up at night, which prevents my real job from sometimes getting done, but which ultimately is giving me a deeper understanding of my area of study. Whew. Long sentence.

Yet

If I could live off the generosity of the state and not have to get up at 5 a.m. every morning for work then I could probably devote much more time to my studies. I might even entertain the hopes of becoming an expert in my field of study. I could write papers and know with certainty that I nailed it — no one could contradict my opinion because I would be the authority on that subject. I admire people who have that Indiana Jones-type confidence and knowledge when they are dealing with their area of expertise. But as a full-time worker, family woman, and also grad student in an online program, I need to accept certain limitations. I find joy in the learning as I make peace with my role as a student, with the fact that I will sometimes feel like a phony, knowing I will have to talk about things I don’t fully grasp, and I will need to be OK with not understanding everything…yet... because the fact that I’m a student means that I’m the road to understanding.


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This blogger is paid by Lamar University solely for submitting this blog and is in no way coerced to provide specific blog points or opinions.

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